Last Letter

That day I came to you suddenly. I didn't plan it before. The timing was right that time. So I went to your work place. Surprised! It was empty! When I saw the announcement paper (also the map) that has been stamped on the fence, I was so in a rush to get in the car and went to your new one.
Before I was arrived there, I sent you a text first and you replied it while I was waiting for you in front of that place. Because it was pending, I decided to call you and tell you about me being there. You came downstairs and met me. I was both so happy and sad at the moment I saw you. My heart felt like it would explode anytime soon. Hugging you was the thing I wanna do most, so I hugged you tight. After you finished your work, you gave me time to chat by asking me to grab a dinner. That night's event was when I told you I wanna wait for you and still love you a lot. But you said that you would feel more comfortable with this kind of situation and relationship now. Just friends, not more than that. You also told me that you've been closed to a guy and how nice he is. And the thing that made me sad more was you were wearing a ring from him. Ironic though. I've just given you a ring after 1.5 years relationship and you already wore his ring even before you start your relationship. Honestly, I was hurt so much and I started to cry because of it. Not because I wanted you to wear mine, but I just felt replaced. Those things really hit me hard but helped me realize at the same time. That was the end of our story and we will never be together again. It's time to say goodbye to you and our love.

Goodbye...

with love

the person who loves you so much

Never Ending Story

Bener ga sih semua cerita ada endingnya? Bener banget. Tapi ada hal yang ga pernah punya akhir. Hal itu namanya kenangan. Dan kadang, kenangan itu bisa membunuh hati gw. Cupu banget ya.. Ga tau deh. Mestinya gw udah ga pernah lagi nulis di blog ini. Karena orang yang inspiring gw di blog ini juga udah ga sama gw. Tapi kenapa gw masih juga kepikiran dia kadang-kadang? Dan hubungan terakhir gw sama dia itu merubah gw banget dengan segala cara pikir gw. Huff, mestinya gw udah selesain semuanya. Tapi tetep aja ada yang nyangkut.

Bingung

Biasanya aku langsung menulis panjang saat patah hati
tapi entah kenapa sekarang semua rasanya tak berarti
Entah mau menulis apa dan kata-kata apa yang mewakili
rasanya kepalaku penuh dan tak tahu harus berbuat apa

Aku kehilangan kamu yang biasanya jadi inspirasi
kehilangan rasanya dibutuhkan seseorang yang istimewa
Jadi semua sekarang tak lagi berguna
Aku jadi sering merasa mengawang-ngawang

Entah kapan akan berakhir

Untuk Apa

Ku tak mengerti perasaan dirimu

beban yang menghimpit begitu beratnya

Kau tak mengerti ku hanya ingin merasa

dibutuhkan juga dicintai

Bukan kita tak pernah mencoba

Bukan kita tak pernah bertahan

Untuk apa tetap di sini?

Jika hanya saling menyakiti

Untuk apa tetap bertahan?

Jika tak menjadi lebih baik

Menyerah

Menyerah

Menyerah

Menyerah

Menyerah

Menyerah

Menyerah

Sad

I feel sad,

every time I see your name

every time I imagine your face

every time I remember about us

every time I wait for you

every time I share about us

every time I do something else

and everyday recently



Because the reality never be as beautiful as a tale story

Because love never be as romantic as in a love song

Because the break up will always be tougher than people say

Because the relationship will always has its end